I nearly forgot how spectacularly revolutionary this season is...
Perhaps it is my life's way of sneaking up on me. Keeping me in the dark about the giant leaps of growth headed my way so that I do not turn and run in the other direction.
In this way my Easter was no different than last and while this one I spent with lots of friends and their families (I got a lot of Mom time in, thank you very much) I had plenty of time to reflect on it all.
Exactly three years ago I went sane. Though I had been working up to it for years prior, 2009 was the Spring I woke up. It had all the indescribable aspects of enlightenment. Most people in my life were sure I had lost my mind and they were absolutely right, I had.
Lost my mind and found my Heart.
The state lasted for months and while I was losing a lot of my previous foundation, all the things I had believed made me a success, I was gaining an indestructible connection to Source. (Where all we need, create and live for comes from anyway.)
And while this was epic and amazing, I still lived in a body and on planet Earth so my Life needed me to also participate in being Human.
What came the following year I was able to share with you. By April 2010 I saw the integration of this awareness and conscious connection to Source into my animal self. I hope that Who Am I Then? described this well enough.
Now it's April 2011 and change is again washing over my life and to describe it I will say this:
My family of friends and blood relations lost a sparkling member last week (see link to article here >> Gerard Smith.)
The simplicity of feeling that the death of a loved one can bring is a remarkable piece of Life. The sadness is so heavy it requires and full stop, conscious breath and a complete immersion in feeling.
To grieve this man that lived out loud, is to recognize the full value of Human experience. I find it to be a requirement of my Soul to live bigger and more intensely in celebration of Gerard's Life.
As Marianne Williamson said it so well,
"We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world... We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."So, this Spring it appears to be time to share what I've learned and create big things from this integrated awareness of Life. I have found my Heart's true mission and the clarity of vision to fulfill it. And I am SO excited about it. I mean, if I don't fulfill my mission, if I don't live my Life, who will?
That's right, nobody.
I will, of course, tell you more about it in the weeks to come (it has much to do with the judgmental little eggs above :-)
For now I'd like to ask, how is Spring transforming your life?
